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Razkhel posted an update 7 years, 11 months ago ·
Lately I’ve been struggling with the feeling of not feeling connected to this world, and just wishing to go back as a dragon and live life in another plane. I’ve had these possible past life memories coming up recently, and it intensifies the feeling, which would make sense, I suppose. In these memories I am a colour of deep blue, scaled, as I see myself, and although I don’t exactly see what I look like, it kind of… Feels right, I suppose? At least, that is how I choose to see myself.
I’m standing in the glade of a deep, think forest, with lush green vegetation, pretty much untouched. It’s night-time, quiet. I don’t know what I’m doing there, perhaps just resting, because my home is high up in the cold mountaint above, where life and vegetation is not common at all.
I feel connected to elves. I’m unsure if there were elven-like being on this world, and I don’t feel or connect with elves in the way that I might have been one in a past life, but as a dragon, I feel connected to them, which I think is a bit strange, because I was not “human sentinent” as a dragon. But I consider myself magical in a sense, and I consider elves to be magical, so perhaps, if there were elven folk on that world, perhaps what kept life togheter on that planet was a magical force of some kind? I don’t know, but I feel as if the connection is magical of some sort.
Not sure where I’m trying to go with this, but I guess I’m writing it down as sort of a little diary of what comes to mind. Feel free to leave your thoughts.
I just come here to pretend I’m something I’m not. I pretend to be a damselfly-winged bullfrog, because that’s been a kind of totem of mine since I was very young. I imagine myself as fairy in the form of a damselfly-winged bullfrog. I think there is 0 possibility that I have some kind of a soul of frog-fairy, but I also think there is almost no difference between someone having the soul of a dragon, and someone feeling like they have the soul of a dragon, or pretending they do, because either way they have they have the same human form. Therefore I’m completely fine with your beliefs. Maybe you were/are a blue dragon, or a white dragon that was unusually bluish, or a hybrid between the two. The first blue dragon I’d heard of was in the game Castle of the Winds. The blue dragons breathed lightning. Although, maybe the blue represents ice and you have more in common with white dragons who, according to games and TV and books, breathe cold. Do you like the cold, or do you feel energized from lightning and thunder, like you want to soar at the head of a storm cloud? Perhaps you were a friend of elves. I could see elves having great respect for ancient, magical beings like dragons.